Tales from the Road, Part 1

Arrived safely and sound in our cabin on the Outer Banks. Out of all our trips, this one is the prettiest cabin so far. Doesn't hurt we're less than a quarter mile from the Atlantic Ocean.

My Ann Arbor trip was good. Spent a lot of time with Marta, going on walks, accompanying Ethan to the playground. I love my new friends in Austin, but it was nice hanging out with people who have known me for years and years again.

Can't believe how much Ethan has grown since I last saw him. He's no longer a baby, but a toddler now. Despite my injured shoulder, I couldn't resist picking him up and playing with him. That, along with yoga, may have worsened my condition. It started throbbing Thursday night and I had Marta look at it for me on Friday morning. She told me the alignment seemed off to me and asked me if it was possibly dislocated. I laughed and told her it was impossible. That may have been mistake number one.


Friday afternoon Jon, Jessi, Amanda, and I caravaned in two cars from Ann Arbor toward DC where we'd meet up with 5 more from the gang: Mel, Lily, Sarah, Sarah, and Dan. The first leg of the trip was fairly uneventful minus one of us decided to relieve ourself on the side of the road unknowingly less than 500 yards before a rest area, as well as missing a turn and ending up in Annpolis at 2am.

We took off the next day, 9 of us in 3 different cars and headed toward North Carolina. Traffic was a little crazy, so we decided to take local roads for part of the trip. That took us by Best Buy where we decided to hop out and purchase Wii Rockband for the trip.

During this part of the trip, I became convinced there was something very very wrong with my shoulder and started freaking out a little. Still, we had 7 or so hours before arriving at our destination so as a compromise, the car I was in would at an ER about one hour away from our cabin. This was the last time I've been spotted with full use of both arms:

It turns out my shoulder is NOT dislocated. Rather, I have an AC separation (otherwise known as a shoulder separation). Stage 3 requires surgery. Luckily, I came in at stage either 1 or 2 (I have to schedule a visit with the orthopaedist when I go home). Now for the rest of the week, my arm is in a sling and I'm constantly on either vicodin or tylenol codeine. On my doctor's note, it emphasized that I need to not practice yoga for at least 7 days. Besides my inability to boogey board in the ocean, drum in rock band, or practice yoga, it's nice to be taken care of on this trip. More to come...

Good to be home.

Picture of the cabin we rented this year. Can't wait to get there on Saturday!!

It's good to be home. I'm at day 6 of being home with the parents and am actually a little sad to be leaving them this afternoon for Ann Arbor. (But just a little, because I'm heading to North Carolina tomorrow for my annual Kiss My Vacation...) Besides jarring discoveries such as the no longer-existence of Farmer Jack and replacement of old buildings and shops with new ones, home is the same as always.

Home is restful. I've been catching up on movies all week. In college and post college, my dad was always one step behind me in what movies we've seen. Now, our roles are flipped. This week I've watched Shaolin Soccer, Bourne Ultimatum, Ocean's Thirteen, Prince Caspian, August Rush, and the Bucket List. I try to work on research during the day (sometimes successful, sometimes not), practice some gentle yoga at home (still nursing that shoulder), and go on a daily walk with the parents (they are the only people I know who goes on walks at Meijer). Oh and I've been eating warm homecooked food (hope I still fit into my swimsuit!)

It's been good seeing everyone again, too. I hung out with the youth group a few times, went to Marti's wedding shower, and grabbed drinks with Lena. Tonight Marta, Lena, and I are going to relive our girl's nights days before I reunite with the Kiss My Gang.

Good news though! I just found out today that I got hired as a yoga instructor at the yoga studio where I practice!! Apparently as a sub/yoga instructor I get free unlimited classes. No more mopping floors or taking out recycling to pay for my classes!! I may ask to stay permanently on the sub list at 24 hour fitness and concentrate on teaching at UT and at my studio. My hope is to rack up enough teaching hours to work toward my 500 hour teaching certification (after I graduate, of course).

Couldn't resist posting this comic strip. Seriously the story of my life.

Frozen Shoulder

I haven't been able to use my left shoulder in almost a week.

Last week I reinjured my left rotator cuff. It wasn't such a bad injury so I continued to use it like normal and practice yoga, taking care to ice it and massage it with icy hot each night. Sunday I felt better and pushed myself a little too hard in yoga. Monday I could no longer extend my left arm back or even clasp my hands behind my back.

It's been a frustrating week since my left hand (and consequently arm and shoulder) is dominant. My injury has impaired my ability to make sharp left turns while driving, carry my bags on my left side, and perform simple chores such as sweeping and mopping. Not to mention I am not able to practice yoga at all. (Elliptical workouts are still okay as long as I don't swing my arm).

Yet, through the frustrations, it's been self-revealing and an opportunity for growth. I realize that I've started become goal oriented rather than process oriented, and this injury is forcing me to step back and reevaluate my purpose for doing things. It's also helping me to break through patterns and habits I've established and to rediscover my own rhythm and my own style. It's also a timely injury. I leave for vacation tomorrow and have the opportunity to rest and recuperate!!

Guess who I get to see in less than 2 weeks????

Surprise visit from old friends

I've been a bit homesick for my friends and family from back home. Memorial Day weekend, Amanda flew down to Texas to visit me (post pictures on facebook redheaded girl!!!) and this week, two other friends from my posse I affectionately call the Kiss My Gang surprised me by swinging by Austin on their cross country road trip to San Fran.

They arrived Monday night and asked me to "show them Austin." Considering that no (straight) clubs are open on Monday because no one goes out on a Monday night, I did my best and as a result am still recovering from sleep deprivation.

Pictures I stole off their blog:

Dinner at Hula Hut
Cover band at Chuggin' Monkey
Us at Gingerman

Refinement

Life is settling down. I've started coming into the office albeit still more sporadically than I'd like. Work and meetings are starting to kick off and I'm reminded of why I do like grad school. My yoga career is starting to take off and I'm grateful to be paid to teach classes. I'm loving teaching yoga, though I'm still learning how to balance grad school and yoga.

I'm currently writing a review paper on self-enhancement, or the desire to be seen favorably. Part of my discussion comes from a cultural angle, and it's gotten me thinking about the western phenomenon of desiring greatness. Our culture in America socializes us to desire greatness, to "make something of our life" and to be more than ordinary. We take setbacks and failures and fabricate a grandiose reason for them in order to continue seeking greatness in our lives. Yet, is it a bad thing to be ordinary?

By definition, very few people are really able to rise above ordinary for everyone cannot be extraordinary. Sometimes I think this desire for greatness hinders us from really living our lives and appreciating the simple things that we have because we keep eschewing the normal in search of something greater. I wonder if the desire for greatness is mutually exclusive with being a good steward of what we do have.

I grew up with grandiose dreams of being the best at something, whether it's singing, acting, ministry, worship leading, or even being the Psychologist who gives birth to a ground-breaking new theory. Yet no matter how I seek those things, I feel ultimately unfulfilled, even bitter, angry, and wanting a new life. In Austin, I've been meeting people who work ordinary everyday jobs (concierge work, waiting tables, retail, yoga instruction) and am struck by how well they do their jobs. They are good stewards of what they have and they use their talents to the max in the jobs they do. While they may not have dreams of grandeur (maybe they do, I don't know), they are able bless others incredibly by just being faithful at their jobs.

I cannot help but marvel at how different that looks from the way I live my life! As I look at the lives of Biblical characters such as Abraham, Job, Moses, David, Gideon, I'm struck by how God did amazing things through these people who never sought after greatness. Rather, their focus was solely on being faithful to the roles they were allotted in life.

It's taken years of refinement, of chasing after pipe dreams and facing disappointments and failures, but I'm finally beginning to learn my lesson of valuing faithfulness in the ordinary over the desire for greatness.