Emotionally healthy

My dear friend Les lent me a book called Emotionally Healthy Spirituality by Peter Scazzero. It's life-changing already and I'm only on chapter 1. For as long as I can remember I've been feeling that there's something just wrong in my life. This book is causing me to reflect not only on my spiritual life this past year, but spanning all the way back to my spiritual walk in youth group as well as InterVarsity.

I realize that I've never been emotionally mature.

Could it be that I've been so drained physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually because I've never taken the time to work through emotional baggage I've carried with me all these years? Could that be why I've been so jaded with the church and with Christian leadership? Could that have spawned some deep-rooted rebellion in my life?

Two quotes by Oswald Chambers that mean so much to me:
"When you yield to something, you will soon realize the tremendous control it has over you. Even though you say, 'Oh, I can give up that habit whenever I like,' you will know you can't. You will find that the habit absolutely dominates you because you willingly yielded to it. It is easy to sing, 'He will break every fetter,' while at the same time living a life of obvious slavery to yourself. But yielding to Jesus will break every kind of slavery in a person's life."

"He will deliver you from yourself."

Praise God who can work through all my issues and baggage and deliver me from them. In Him I am made clean, righteous, whole, and new.