Discouraged

Feeling pretty discouraged today... I dunno why.

Ever feel like you're kinda just going through the motions? Because that's how I've felt for the last week...

Quote

Just wanted to share a little quote from my favorite book. This quote is very meaningful to me, as it speaks of a lesson I had to learn recently:

"So be lonely. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person's body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings." -Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat Pray Love

Blessings

I've been back in Austin for about 4 days and feel like I'm almost all caught up. I've got a few meetings at school this afternoon, some preparation to do for those meetings beforehand, but I'm grateful to have gotten almost 12 hours of sleep last night. 

It's been an eventful few days. I got my old Chevy all fixed up at the car shop (finally), my inspections/registration up to date... just to sell that car yesterday and buy a new car. With the economy as bad as it is, and because I felt like my Chevy was going to fall apart any minute (and it had no air conditioning to begin with), I bit the bullet and bought myself a 2008 Kia Spectra.

This is hands-down the nicest car I've ever owned. It's got automatic everything, it drives smoothly, is fuel economical, has air-conditioning, and is just pretty to look at right down to the exterior color. And the car payments are definitely manageable for me as long as I am more careful about where I spend my money. The best part is that the warrenty extends through when I am expecting to graduate. So till then, unless I really pull a stupid, I don't have to worry about spending money to fix up the car. And that's a relief after how much money I spent fixing up the beaten-up Chevy I owned.

I woke up this morning and realized just how richly blessed I am in terms of comfort of living. I live in a really nice apartment (and the rent did not go up this year so we're staying in it another year), I have a nice car, I am not in need in terms of food or clothing; in fact, other than the money to travel, there is not a single thing I really need or want that I don't have. I am getting paid to have an education, and I am getting paid to do a hobby that I love: yoga.

What more can I ask for? Seriously?